hey, thanks, this is a really nice message. I’ve gotten a few like this over the last few months, so I’m going to answer them all in one, to put this question to rest.
I really enjoyed writing Pawnstuck, and I’m still pretty fond of it. there’s some good stuff in there. unfortunately, after all this time, I don’t think I’m going to be continuing it. there are two main reasons.
1. I worked on this thing during probably the most difficult time of my life, when I had recently made the official decision to leave the boarding school I had attended for the last three years, and was going through some pretty horrible depression and anxiety issues. anyone who talked to me on Skype, followed my personal blog or read my frequent excuses for update delays near the end can probably attest to this. I was a mess. aside from the basic “this is a fun idea and I want to see it written,” Pawnstuck was attempted as a distraction from all the really unpleasant stuff going on in my life. as a result, as much as I love all these characters and reimagining them in all these crazy AU situations, even thinking about my old plans for the story brings me back into a headspace I’d honestly rather not revisit.
2. I probably enjoyed writing Pawnstuck too much. every chance I got, I would introduce a new character or plot twist or cliffhanger to get an “OH MAN” response from readers, at the expense of narrative focus or coherence. even separated from all the real-life emotional context, the story in its current state is borderline unsustainable. there are 12 Carapacians (each of which would logically have to have their own guardian, sprite, planet, alchemizations, etc.) 15 Felt (less extra work here, since I planned to mostly display their session as a super-abridged version of Hivebent, but a lot of their characterizations were kind of made up halfheartedly on the fly, before i really got a handle on their personalities, and thus would need some serious retooling to be interesting, not to mention…~FELT WORLDBUILDING~…), all the trolls and kids and their guardians taking the place of the Exiles/Royalty/Prospitians/Dersites/etc. (hoooo boy), not to mention Spades Slick and Ms. Paint, Doc Scratch, alternate-universe Calliope, the Horrorterrors….it’s a clusterfuck, basically. to pull this story together at this point would require a work ethic rivaling that of Andrew Hussie himself.
and it should be mentioned that unlike Andrew Hussie, I can’t fucking draw. if you notice, almost all of the vaguely visually impressive images that weren’t blatant panel edits were done by guest contributors. I really, truly appreciate the beautiful work and boundless enthusiasm of all the artists that lent a hand with Pawnstuck, but I just don’t feel comfortable asking for free work on such a scale, especially since as the story requires more and more visual sophistication to be told satisfactorily, that would mean A LOT of guest art, during a time where general fandom interest in Homestuck is at a low, a lot of the previous guest artists have moved on, and it’s not even something I feel passionate enough about to devote that level of creative energy to anymore. it would be way more effort for everybody than it would be fun.
so, there you go. thank you so much to everyone who supported this project, whether it was with art, writing help, blog promotion, or just really nice anon messages. I appreciate all of you, and I’m happy my overambitious fancomic was able to bring a smile to your faces for a while.
also, I’m sorry the last line of dialogue ended up being from Itchy. that’s my greatest regret.